i need to get out of my own way

I couldn't take a nap today because all i kept thinking about the next step in my life, where will it lead, what is going to happen. In my heart I know GOD is in control and when I leave any situation up to him everything seems to come out better than it ever could if I were in charge. I also know I don't want to be in charge ( in my heart) so now its getting my mind to follow. I laid in the bed and I asked myself a couple of questions: DO I WANT SOMETHING TO HAPPEN JUST TO FEEL LIKE GOD IS LISTENING TO YOU OR DO I WANT TO WAIT AND HAVE HIM MAKE THE CHOICE AND GAIN PATIENCE AT THE SAME TIME (yes, i ask myself long questions)
I love the feeling the peace that came over me when I realized that I was letting go. I love that feeling of peace, i love that feeling of knowing everything was going to be okay. Now the trick is to keep reminding my self of the what i know to be true and keep my head in check with my heart